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Big life changes and grief

My daughter has just started Big School and I’m feeling surprisingly emotional about it…

I have such a distinct memory of calling my mom the day my daughter started play school and crying on the phone with her. I was surprised by my reaction then, too – I loved having the house to myself! I knew it was the right time for her! – and yet I felt upside down emotional.

Today feels similar. Uninterrupted time to work is a rare and precious joy. She’s ready for it! And yet, and yet…

I think part of it comes from not being able to share the experience with my mom. Not being able to send her the obligatory adorable first day of school pic, not calling her as soon as I got back from drop-off.

And of course she’s here, I know she’s here. I dreamt of my mom last night and can feel her presence today – even in spirit, she wouldn’t miss a day like this. But it’s not the same… not even a little bit, not at all.

So! Tea. A mint Lindor chocolate ball. A lovely scented candle. And some deep breaths…

#grief #griefjourney #griefsucks

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  1. Angel Mallari Angel Mallari

    Hi Bridget
    I came across your book recently as I just lost my mom in February 2023 ( a few months ago) and your book has been very helpful — well, let me be honest — I am still reading through it and doing the exercises but it helps me to realize that what I am feeling is all very “normal” (for lack of a better word).

    My mom lived in a different state and was diagnosed with “C” in July 2022. She was a fighter and my best cheerleader and I miss her daily. There wasn’t a day when we didn’t speak or I wasn’t speaking with a doctor/nurse or someone about her. Well, it’s been a rough few months … and I still have a ways to go ..

    In any case, I wanted to say that I can relate to what you are saying. My daughter is a Junior and so much is going on that I want to share with my mom and … it takes me a moment to catch myself from dialing her number ….

    I haven’t had my “visits” in dreams yet or maybe it’s just too early for her to come to me because its too fresh…

    But thank you for sharing your book and your grief and helping me to cope and realize mine…

    • Oh Angel, it is so hard… And so fresh, still! Whatever you are feeling is totally normal, and it is still so hard…
      I can promise you that eventually it lifts – even if it feels as if it won’t.
      Sending you love and strength, one day at a time x

      • Angel Mallari Angel Mallari

        Thank you so much for responding back.

        I wasn’t sure if you would/could since you are very busy

        I appreciate your thoughts and I know you understand and it’s not just words.

        I look forward to finishing your book along my journey

        Congratulations in your success.

        Thanks again

        • One day at a time! That’s all we can do… I do understand. And it does eventually pass.
          So much love to you x

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